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Post by Nishimura Shoko on Nov 23, 2013 15:20:05 GMT -5
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Everything was getting blurry in Nishimura's vision as she was crying. If it's not her fault then whose fault was it and why was she to blame for it? When she got beaten for the first time, she screamed in pain and kept asking what she did wrong. She was an obedient girl when she was young and didn't cause any trouble. She didn't understand until they told her what she did wrong. Nishimura pleaded for her parents to stop and they never did. Now stand a broken Nishimura, in front of a captain crying her eyes out. When she finally managed to calm down a little she was going to speak but only in sobs.
"It felt like I was being beaten again for betrayal for telling you the truth and it still hurt like it's a fresh wound." She was going to try and find some peace but she's not sure if she can do it. All of her barriers are down now and didn't like it at all, still she can't believe a captain who can sympathize with her, broke all of the barriers she put around her to keep people away. Now it seemed like she can't put them back up anymore.
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Post by Kakashei Haruko on Nov 23, 2013 22:19:27 GMT -5
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✖ CRYSTAL BLUE DISGUISE So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold. I will lift up your voice as I sink. TAGS something here WORDS something here STATS HAN: 12--REI: 15--HAK: 12--SEI: 12--BUK: 12--HOH: 14 NOTES something here Kakashei could only sympathize with the female. He felt sorry for her, he didn't know how it would feel to be betrayed by your parents of all people. Lowering his head, he sighed for a moment as his fingers ran through his hair. Hearing the female's question, he didn't have a actual reason for why, he could only make a guess. "I wish I knew. As I said, some people are sick individuals. Their actions can do nothing but harm those around them. In this case, your parents were the sick ones and you were the victim of their actions, sadly."
Pausing for a moment, he slowly inhaled and exhaled. He never thought of himself to be the type to "comfort" someone. It wasn't his style to be so sympathetic or anything. Doesn't mean he lack any form of sympathy for others, it just wasn't his style to be such a way. "...Does it help to know that your parents paid for their actions in the after life? I can tell you that they didn't end up in Soul Society or anything. Right now they're probably in hell or hueco mundo as corpses. Then again, I don't know if that would make you feel better in any type of way. sadly. Iprobably sound like a idiot right now." he stated as he sighed in dissapointment.
He really was doing a bad job at comforting her right now, at least he think he was. The female was crying, so he may of not been doing to well. Looking in his haori, he had one cloth left for the female to wipe her eyes with. He didn't know if she lost the other or not, but it was the ggentleman's thing to do. Handing the cloth over to her, he place his right palm along her shoulder, hesistently of course. He didn't really know how to console others in situations such as this, it was rather difficult, to say the least.
"You are at least already following the first step, you're letting it all out. Its probably the best way to start letting this type of thing go." he tried to encourage as he hope this would help the female break down her first few barriers, he's already broken one, it seems. So maybe if he could accomplish that, he could help her let this go.
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Post by Nishimura Shoko on Nov 27, 2013 14:25:29 GMT -5
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"I can't believe I was so stupid to keep it all bottled up but to be honest, everyone who heard my story they just told me to get it over and also you broke all of my barriers I built over the years also my parents are still alive but old though." She giggled a little at how ignorant she was but can you blame her? Ryu on the other hand was revealed to see her master turn away from vengeance. It had hurt her to see Nishimura in the depressive state and was very thankful for the captain that managed to break the barriers down.
Maybe now she could make some friends. After hearing about the first step she got curious. "What's the second step then Captain?" Nishimura was not good at making friends, well now yes, but in the past she did have friends that left her one by one stating that they don't like the state she was in. Apparently Nishimura lost more than she thought she had in the past yet it didn't hit home on how much she did actually lose.
Things might turn around now but she will need more help than just doing it on her own. Ryu knew that there is a difficult path ahead for them both and it's not just the path of rising through the ranks but also making friends and leaving the cold demeanor personality behind her along with the rest of her past and Ryu hopes that Nishimura will never turn to vengeance again or go back to her depression state.
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Post by Kakashei Haruko on Nov 29, 2013 21:01:16 GMT -5
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✖ CRYSTAL BLUE DISGUISE So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold. I will lift up your voice as I sink. TAGS something here WORDS something here STATS HAN: 12--REI: 15--HAK: 12--SEI: 12--BUK: 12--HOH: 14 NOTES something here Kakashei removed his hand from her shoulder once she was calmer. Distancing himself a bit, he folded his arms over his chest once more. It seems the female was just about finish with going through the first step. It was interesting, he never expect himself to be the type to aid others in mattes such as this. He was the farthest from being a therapist, he was simply going by things he has read here and in the human world. Sighing, he was relieved to see that she wa feeling a bit better, he hated being uncomfortable. Situations like this made him that way.
Hearing her speak of the others whomhave heard of her story, he wasn't surprised by what he heard. Some people were a bit cruel, he himself used to be the same. He must of warmed up over the decades, what a pity. Raising his gaze back to the female, he was some wat surprised to hear that he had broken all of her barriers. He knew that he may of had broken some, but all? That was surprising, but it was also relieving to hear. It wasn't long before he was surprised again, apparently her parents were still alive. No wonder she couldn't forget her past, she was still a rather new shinigami. He hadn't suspect that, she must of progressed quickly.
"Well, no wonder you still have nightmares..You're still a pretty fresh shinigami, here I thought you were at least over a hundred, age wise." he commented as his right scratch the back of his head. Lowering his gaze, he had to pause when he heard her question. What was the next step? He couldn't remember, but it was on the tip of his tongue. Curse his random memory lasps. Just as he ws about to wing it, he remembered. "The next step is for you to figure out a way to... not remember the torture your parents gave you. Best way is for you to focus on a hobby that makes you happy. What would that be?" he asked her as he look to the female.
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Post by Nishimura Shoko on Dec 5, 2013 10:12:50 GMT -5
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"Uhm...I don't know. My parents forbidden nearly everything that I wanted to do." Things like this made Nishimura mad. Her parents never allowed her to experience anything nor do anything fun wise, so when it came to questions like this she didn't know what answer to give and would usually said that she doesn't know. It drove people away letting them think that she doesn't have a social life.
Everything she does now feels wrong to her because her parents forced unnecessary rules on her that blocked her from discovering who she really is and what she's capable of. Times like this is hard on Nishimura. Not having enough time to find out what or who you are or where you belong in the world. She still had no answer to the captains question. "Maybe making new stuff, I don't really know."
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Post by Kakashei Haruko on Dec 17, 2013 0:54:37 GMT -5
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✖ CRYSTAL BLUE DISGUISE So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold. I will lift up your voice as I sink. TAGS something here WORDS something here STATS HAN: 12--REI: 15--HAK: 12--SEI: 12--BUK: 12--HOH: 14 NOTES something here
Kakashei waited for a answer in hope of finding out her hobby. But apparently she didn't have one, her parents seem to like making things difficult. Sighing, he scratch the side of his jaw as he tried to think of a hobby for her. He could teach her how to paint, but that wasn't for everyone. There was other hobbies though. Maybe she would find interest in dancing or drawing? There was a lot to choose from, Kakashei just had to figure out one that she would like.
As he thought of this, his hand raised ot his head as he heard hergive somewhat of a answer. Making stuff? He wasn't to keen on that, but he may know of something. "Well, hmm. I don't know about making stuff.. What do you like making? Clothing? If so, then there is sewing. If its that, then you can try doing that. If its regular construction, you can try building small houses or contrapments. Hmm." he tried to give some suggestions, but it was difficult, for him at least.
"Not good with this, my hobby is mainly painting. Well, its more than just a hobby for me. Its a part of me, a strong part of me actually. My zanpakuto is a extention of that. What is yours? The ability of your zanpakuto could help you out, maybe. Or your inner world, if you have one yet. I'm honestly not clear." he responded as he felt a bit bad about not being of more help.
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