Still With You (Colin) Sept 23, 2013 0:03:33 GMT -5
Post by Julius Aristide on Sept 23, 2013 0:03:33 GMT -5
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ulius had been close enough to feel her Reiatsu. Like him, she had been fighting a strong opponent. The clashes he had felt were fierce, frightening even. He couldn't even see himself being able to contend with that level of power. But Julius had had faith. His Queen was even stronger than him. Their powers were oceans apart. He couldn't go comparing himself to her. There was no way she could lose.
That was what he thought.
But then that Reiatsu that was the Arrancar's only comfort vanished. There was no indication that she was starting to weaken; nothing to tell Julius that his help was needed. There was an enormous spike of Reiatsu, and then both of the strong Reiatsu points vanished without a trace; like they had never existed in the first place. His Queen... Zelena, was gone.
At that point, Julius had frozen up. His world was shaken to its roots and he couldn't do anything. He thought he could hear someone screaming, but he didn't listen to that. He just stood there, frantically searching for even a trace of her Reiatsu to tell him that he was wrong. Maybe his Pesquisa was lacking. He had never perfected it, after all.
This huge lapse in attention of course cost the Arrancar his own battle. The captain had cut him down in his distraction. Julius barely even felt it. He didn't remember anything after that. Somehow, he was back in Las Noches. Thanks to his regenerative capabilities, his injuries were all but gone and forgotten. At least, his physical ones were.
He had been awake long enough to have heard the news. There was nothing wrong with his Pesquisa. His Queen was indeed gone. Supposedly, the old man she had been fighting used a sacrificial technique to kill her. The leader of the Gotei Thirteen was gone as well, but Julius found no satisfaction in that. He didn't know exactly how he felt, but it wasn't a good feeling. It was emptiness. There was a hole in his life that could not be filled. He never realized it before. Julius had dedicated his life to Zelena; protecting and helping her. But in reality, he relied on her more than ever.
"Why did you leave me alive, Shinigami..." Now the Arrancar was in a room that was for all purposes, abandoned. It was her room. Everything was the same as the last time he had been in here. Even her scent lingered. There was no indication of what had happened. It didn't seem right. How was everything else so normal in the face of what had happened? It shouldn't be like that. It wasn't like that for Julius; everything was wrong. The woman who had given him a purpose was gone and he would never see her again. She was his sole reason for existence. With her gone, where did that leave him? He hadn't even been able to avenge her. He lost. And then the enemy took pity on him and let him live. It was the ultimate shame. He was useless now; a broken tool. But he couldn't take his own life, even now.
Soon enough, the Arrancar found himself lying halfway over Zelena's bed. He couldn't stay on his feet anymore. He couldn't stop thinking of her and all the time he had been at her side. Before he had met his Queen, nothing had really made sense. He was just like an animal. But then she found him and everything was brought to light. As long as he was with her, he was happy. She was the only reason he had come so far. "I wanted to..."
All of a sudden, Julius wanted that blank feeling to come back. He didn't like the strange wet feeling on his face. The Arrancar was but a shadow of himself now. Unlike before, he didn't care if someone saw him this way. He wouldn't be around much longer, anyway.
MADE BY AYU OF BTN [x]